Failure to Plan or Plan to Fail?

Got assigned my licensing exam test date. It’s for this Thursday. Feeling pretty confident, enough to hit the 60% threshold to be eligible to keep my job and continue in the testing process. Took my first practice exam and got a 69% and then a 70% - should be good to go by Thursday (key word: should). But ever since I started this blog, I was thinking of alternative routes in case this didn’t go my way. But then I started to question whether or not I was planning to fail the test or if I was failing to plan a backup in case this didn’t work out. Before this, I had an opportunity to rake in a huge salary working at a marketing section of a competitive bank but I had already committed to my current employer. I was also referred to this position so I wouldn’t dare jeopardize the reputation of that person and this job nor do I want to put a bad taste in said person’s mouth because they put their name on the line for me. Nonetheless, I think I’m pretty much there. The material isn’t difficult, it’s just the time allotted isn’t enough time. Like I said, now knowing that I can apply myself academically, the sky’s the limit. I’ve begun to think about pursuing Law just for the hell of it but incurring that huge debt made me second guess. Had I known I wanted to be a lawyer from the get, I would’ve at least given myself a chance with a higher GPA. I remember I wanted to become a lawyer my senior year at Long Beach State. I decided to join the Law club on campus. Showed up and the advisor pretty much said I was shit out of luck. So that was short lived. Before getting my current job, I was working for this jiu-jitsu apparel company. I really enjoyed making videos and mini-documentaries on the athletes - some of which I’ve looked up to for a really long time. It was a win-win. I just texted one of the co-founders and asked if they still had a position as the office manager and he said “automatik.” I don’t really know what that means but I hope it’s still there. Maybe I’ll get to learn the ins and outs of an apparel company so that when I hint hint start mine…we’ll see. Things are gonna work out. Things could be worse. Regardless, I’m excited for whichever route this takes me.